Im here for my fiance Phil Smith Jr, who was a HUGE Linkin Park fan. He overdosed 3 times this year alone and was very depressed having a hard time with life... In January 2011 I bought him the Linkin Park cd A thousand Suns.. he listened to it every single day after I bought it.
On June 28th 2011, he committed suicide in our home leaving behind myself and our 2 boys who are 3 and 6.. he was only 28 years old. At first I wanted to blame myself for buying the cd because some of the songs were depressing and for him to listen to them when he was depressed didnt seem to help. his favorite song was waiting for the end, and he asked that we play leave out all the rest at his funeral... but I seen how much he felt he could relate to every song he listened to from Linkin Park.. not just off the new cd I bought him.. I listened to them every day with him as well..
I am no longer blaming music for aiding him into his death... it was his own decision he felt he had to do.. I know nobody from Linkin Park will ever take the time into reading this, or even getting back to me.. but I wanted to say thank you to the band for being something my fiance could relate to and listen to when he felt he couldnt go on anymore. I know he left this world too soon, but through your music, he felt like he had someone who understood. I dont know if i will ever be able to listen to your music again after what has happened, it just makes me sad... but your an amazing band and I hope you stick around for a long time..
Heres to my fiance... may he rest in peace. Philip Smith Jr.. 12/09/1982- 06/28/2011
If Philip was anything like many of us who love Linkin Park, Danielle, then yes, Linkin Park did help him not to feel alone in his feelings and thoughts. I am glad that that is a comfort to you - it must have been hard for you to have felt unable to reach him sometimes. I know I hate it when I cannot take in others caring and their wish to help when I know they are offering it. My caring again ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))