Inner Enslavement

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A rock opera by mike Mantecon

Track 1: Reflection

 Reflecting on the memories

On all of the possibilities

Wishing they were meant for me

But nothing really comes to be

Wasting hours by my reflection

In the mirror, looking for correction

To my constant state of perplexion

Trying to find my own direction

Nothing can really ever last

The only members of my cast

Are emotions I can’t mask

For I am stuck in the past

Track 2: Bad Luck Boy

When I was born on

Friday the Thirteenth

They said it was lucky

To have one like me

They said I was special

And no matter what I say

Friday the Thirteenth

Will be a lucky day

But it doesn’t seem like that now

But it doesn’t seem like that now

When I was young, when

Life was filled with joy

They said don’t surrender

On your dreams, young boy

They said I was different

But that is always okay

Joy and happiness

Will soon come by your way

But it doesn’t seem like that now

But it doesn’t seem like that now

Am I a bad luck boy?

Am I merely a toy?

For faith and destiny

That horrible disease

Just because I was born

On Friday the thirteenth

I am always haunted

By faith and destiny

Or Maybe I just make it that way

Track 3: I Want To Be Special

Something didn’t feel right

Something inside of me

Something was wrong that day

But no one else could see

Because I felt so alone

Because I felt so unknown

And I wanted to change it

To just rearrange my life

Cause I want to be different

I want to be someone else

I want to feel I belong

Belong with everyone else

Cause I want to be happy

With whom I have been inside

I want to find happiness

Where I already reside

Because I feel so alone

Because I feel so unknown

And I want to change it

To just rearrange my life!

(Guitar Solo)

I want to change it

I want to change it

I want to change it

To just rearrange my life!

Cause I want to be different

I want to be someone else

I want to feel I belong

Belong with everyone else

Cause I want to be happy

With whom I have been inside

I want to find happiness

Where I already reside

[The next two stanzas have that fading away sound, like on the end of Let Down by DBS]

Cause I want to be different

I want to be someone else

I want to feel I belong

Belong with everyone else

Cause I want to be happy

With whom I have been inside

I want to find happiness

Where I already reside

[Fading stops; regular volume now]

I want to be happy

I want to be happy

I want to be happy

Track 4: The Scarred Battlefield

Out from the pool of tar

In the pit of despair

In the midst of the pain

That these soldiers have faired

And out from the pool of slush

Comes a creature of disgust

Whose coat of anger and envy

Is glittered by pure lust

And where does this monster go

Leaving the battlefield

Who will be his next victim?

Who will be next to kneel?!

(Guitar Solo)

Track 5: Something’s Missing

I wasted the time away, today

Trying to find something out there

Beyond the lands of misery

Beyond this dark pit of despair

I go to the top of the building

And see an amazing sight

I see the lands, and the sky above

This nighttime brings delight

I see all the lights in the city

From Santa Monica to the OC

I see the lives of all the rich men

Desperately wishing that life for me

I see the buildings, ranging so far

I see the offices and the factories

I see the lives of those who are happy

Desperately wishing that life for me

[The next two lines are sang by a female vocalist guest-star]

Do not worry for tomorrow, Mike

All the good things will come

Do not worry, time isn’t borrowed

Your story has just begun

And if you stay strong throughout the storm

You will find happiness

And if you find your way to the light

You will find more, not less

[It goes back to Mike singing]

But as long as the wheels of time are hissing

I still know that there’s something missing

I go back inside, try to calm down

Try to ease my mind of the feeling

I try to numb my brain, but I can’t

I feel like my scars are not healing

Nothing I do can ease all the pain

That haunts me as long as I try

To find the one calling in the wind

To find memories that I passed by

[The guest star sings the two stanzas again]

Do not worry about the pain, Mike

Soon it will wash away

Do not worry when you’re feeling down

With me, you can always stay

And if you stay strong throughout the fight

The ones you love will cheer

Don’t worry about the ones you hate

They will all disappear

(Guitar Solo)

[Goes back to Mike Singing]

But as long as the wheels of time are hissing

I still know that there’s something missing

Track 6: Temptation

(Long Instrumental Intro)

[The whole song is sang by a Male vocalist guest-star with a bass voice, acting out the creature that came out of that pit in track 4]

Mike, you’re in so much pain

Not like when you were a child

You have gone so far, you

Must have gone so many miles

But still something’s missing

I can see it in your eye

You have gone full circle

But yet you haven’t tried

But you can ease your pain

If you only follow me

I’ll let darkness drag you down

And numb you; put you at ease

So do you want to live

In this pit of dark despair

Or do you want to die

All happy and unaware

You can try to resist

You’re only wasting your time

As soon as temptation comes

You’re wimpy soul is mine

Track 7: Party Life

I need a break from all the strife

I need some excitement in life

I need the thrills above the law

I need to expose my own flaws

I need to find a pretty girl

I need to drink some alcohol

I need to almost have got killed

I’m gonna bet to lose it all

And I’m becoming a slave on the inside

And a demon on the outside

But who cares?

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

Is this my life?

That’s Right!

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

Is this who I am inside?

That’s Right!

I want a break from all the pain

I want some time to go insane

Temptation is now my ride

To something that I can’t hide

And I want to be a star

I want to truly go far

I want you to know my name

I want to have all the fame

(Guitar Solo)

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

Is this my life?

That’s Right!

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

And I wonder and I wonder and I wonder and I wonder

Is this who I am inside?

That’s Right!

Track 8: Pain

Pain

It comes again

The War within

Me never ends

 Sad

I fe-el bad

Where is the life

I used to have

I cannot hide it any longer

I am weaker, I am not stronger

There’s so much pain inside my head

So much pain inside my head

All the pain I keep in my head

All the pain I keep in my head

Wheels are spinning around again

Wheels are spinning around again

 War

Knocks on my door

I cannot take

This anymore

So

I bet my soul

On the harsh game

Nobody knows

All the pain I keep in my head

All the pain I keep in my head

Wheels are spinning around again

Wheels are spinning around again

Pain

It comes again

Where are the ones

I call my friends?

Track 9: Inner Enslavement Pt. 1

Where did the years go?

The time passed so slow

But still the wind blows

Me onto my toes

When did I just die?

Inside me, oh why?

When did I just shy

Away from my life!

I’m a slave on the inside

A demon on the outside

And I’m walking side by side

With my own alibis!

I look at myself

Mirror in a shelf

I’m like no one else

I’m not someone else

Everyone go away

I’d rather just pay

For mistakes I’ve made

More than you just stay!

I’m a slave on the inside

A demon on the outside

And I’m walking side by side

With my own alibis!

(Guitar Solo 1)

And now I must pay

For mistakes I’ve made

And now I must cry

At the devils side

And now I must see

All the tragedy

And now I must spill

My blood on my will!

(Guitar Solo 2)

I’m a slave on the inside

A demon on the outside

And I’m walking side by side

With my own alibis!

Track 10: Alone

Sitting alone

Like so many times before

Waiting for someone

To come knock on my door

Why won’t they come?

How could they just leave me alone?

I am rotting

And still they haven’t came to me

Am I guilty?

Am I guilty of all these crimes?

Will I just be

Torn away by the fabric of time?

(Guitar Solo)

Please come back home

I miss you so much already now

Please, I love you

And still you will not come back now

Please come back here

I am fading away

Please come back here

Please come back and stay

Track 11: Nobody Cares

I do not need happiness

I do not need much sadness

I do not need anyone there

All because nobody cares

I do not need any friends!

I do not need enemies!

For the world’s my enemy

All because nobody cares

I do not need caring words

They are not really the truth

I do not need happy times

I have already lived my youth

I do not need company

I can live in loneliness

I do not need those good deeds

I’d rather die in homelessness

I do not need those who “care”

They are just paid to do so

I do not need those who “share”

I’d rather starve O so slow

And I can leave them all behind

As I enter into my mind!

Track 12: Inner Enslavement Pt. 2

I’ve had it up to here with the world

I’ve had it up to here with my life

Everyone is always against me

And I don’t have anywhere to hide

I want to be known and be loved

I do not want to be a third wheel

Why do you care about her more than me?

Why do you care about him more than me?

[For the next two stanza the guest-star with the bass voice come back and sings again, still acting out that evil creature from tracks 4 and 6]

Hey Mike, I heard you have realized

That no one in this damn earth cares

About you, and you are all alone

And still it’s the same, no one’s aware

So how about you accept my offer

And you’ll be as free as a bird

You’ll be locked away from the light

And locked away from this cruel world

[It goes back to Mike singing]

And I’m locking myself away

Locking myself away

I’m locking myself away from this cruel world!

I see you care a lot…about others

I see you share a lot…with others

I see you are supportive…of others

But my view is distorted…not others’

(Guitar Solo)

[The guest-star with the bass voice sings again]

So, what do you say, Mike?

Will you become a slave on the inside?

[It goes back to Mike singing]

And I’m becoming a slave on the inside

A slave on the inside

I’m becoming a slave on the inside, and leaving this cruel world!

Track 13: The Wrong Decision

[Note: anything in italic means it has an echoing sound to it]

I am stuck here alone

Alone

Alone

Alone

Alone

In the emptiness of my mind

I have what I wanted

Wanted

Wanted

My own world, and it is all mine

But still something’s missing

I am still out of touch

I still have that longing

Longing

And I miss you so much

And I’m looking back at all I had

Maybe my life wasn’t so bad

I am walking alone

In the empty void of my mind

I am trying so hard

To get something that I can find

I miss you so much now

I’ve shed many tears all this time

I want you back in my arms

But I’m so lost, can’t find the time

But I could make a world

My own city within my mind

I could make a marvel

And it could all be just mine

And there’d be no worries

Everyone would know my name

Except without you there

It would never be the same

And I’m looking back at all I had

Maybe my life wasn’t so bad

 I wander, O so cold

In the empty vastness of time

I can never just seem

The get the thing that I can’t find

I miss everyone now

Even the people I did hate

Now all these memories

Cause a pain that is so great

I suddenly feel alive

And I think I can make it through

I can run, run forever

Until I finally found you

But when I start to run

There is nothing within my wake

Nothing except that white

Vastness of empty space

And without you here

I can never feel the same

The photos floating there

Here and everywhere

Haunting memories

Of what I used to be

Now I’m truly alone

Alone

Alone

Alone

Alone

And I’m looking back at all I had

Maybe my life wasn’t so bad

But I just threw it all away

Track 14: My Kingdom

In the vastness of time

I created myself a world

Where everyone was loved

And everyone was heard

And everyone stood there

They were all hand in hand

It seemed so nice, for a while

But I just blew it again

All of you damn people

Bow before me, right now!

That’s right, worship my glory

Worship my glory right now!

And you must all follow My Kingdom’s law!

Keep your libido under wrap!

Or I’ll give you something to cry about

Keep your complaints matter of fact!

Or I’ll give you something to cry about

You all must love only me!

Until the end of time

I won’t feel like a third wheel!

Like I did most of my life!

And you must all follow My Kingdom’s law!

Soldier: “This one gave you the middle finger.”

Mike: “Tear him limb from limb, in front of the audience”

Soldier “This one didn’t bow before your glorious figure”

Mike “Burn him alive, in front of the audience”

If you do not follow the law, you will die!

If you do not follow the law, you will die!

IF YOU DO NOT FOLLOW THE LAW, YOU WILL DIE!!!

(Guitar Solo)

And you must all follow My Kingdom’s law!

Track 15: In Decay

I was caught in a dream

When my memories started burning up

I was weary and lean

And my hunger had lasted long enough

I was caught in a lie

When all my friends starting fading away

Is this how I will die

With memories in burning decay

I’m panicking

I’m panicking

I’m forgetting everything

I’m panicking

I’m panicking

I’m forgetting everything

Someone save me

Someone save me

I’m fading away, I’m fading away

I’m dying here

I’m dying here

I’m dying here in decay

 I was caught in my love

When I realized that I can’t name it

I’m forgetting who I love

I don’t even know the words to name it

And I’m losing it all

I’m fading away into nothingness

And I’m so sorry

But saying that now won’t make a difference!

I’m panicking

I’m panicking

I’m forgetting everything

I’m panicking

I’m panicking

I’m forgetting everything

Someone save me

Someone save me

I’m fading away, I’m fading away

I need my loved ones

I need my loved ones

Or I’ll die here in decay

(Guitar Solo)

[The next lines in this song are whispered during the guitar solo]

Losing everything

Losing everything

Losing everything

Everything but love

Track 16: Inner Enslavement Pt. 3

Working, Working, Working

Working, Working, Working

Working, Working, Working

If you’re a slave you gotta work!

[Clanking sounds]

[Music Sounds]

What d’you say, you wanna go home

I thought you wanted to be all alone

I thought you said that nobody cares

I though you didn’t want to be out there

So now, all of a sudden, you change your mind?

Just all out of the blue, you come to me and whine?

About how you are losing all you had

And that alone out there, you’d be more glad

Don’t go out there and torture your life!

With crime, disease, and sexual drive

That is the reason you left in the first place

Come on man; think in your own pace!

But what is that? there’s still something missing?

And the wheels of time are still hissing?

Why Mike, you are going in circles

Like the wheels, you still go in circles!

Oh look, how cute, you’re trying to escape

Trying to get to your original place

But I’m not gonna let you, not so fast!

Your little escape will not last!

[Music slows down and stops, then explodes]

Trying to run away from your fate

When you already know it’s too late

You’re done, you’re done, you’re done, you’re done

You’re never coming back to where you begun

The closeness to death is on your mind

As you try to leave your sins behind

The Devil loves you for what you’ve done

He loves that toy that you call a gun!

You think you’re gonna go insane

With your libido, and all of the pain

You’re done, you’re done, you’re done, you’re done

You’re never coming back to where you begun

You try to call for help, it’s no use

Your soul is hanging by the noose

And in the dark trees, a howling sound

And you turn around, turn around, turn around

They’re dragging you down, to the ground, to the ground

You can hear a faint, faint, sound

And you’re trying to escape with all your might

As you disappear into the night

(Guitar Solo)

Track 17: Somebody’s Love

Memories

Memories

All I have left is memories

Decaying

Decaying

My skin and bones are decaying

Processing

Processing

Why did this all go upside down?

 Somebody’s love

Somebody’s love

Is the only thing that can save me now!

But there’s no one in sight

I told them all to leave

Now I’m in so much pain

And there’s nothing for me

Someone please come back here!

I didn’t want you to go

Now I need you all most

But I’m rotting all alone

Sinking down

All around

Am I really just a sad clown?

Please help me

Please help me

Where are you now, where are you now?

I’m dying

I’m dying

Do you care, and are you aware?

I’m begging

I’m begging

It’s the only thing that can save me now!

But there’s no one in sight

I told them all to leave

Now I’m in so much pain

And there’s nothing for me

Someone please come back here!

I didn’t want you to go

Now I need you all most

But I’m rotting all alone

(Guitar Solo)

Track 18: The Final Slumber

They come in

It’s time to eat

They will win

Over a treat

I will die

The time is now

No one cares

And still somehow

The ones that I love didn’t come

For the first time I haven’t won

I miss my family and friends

For now I’ll just have to pretend

They’ll come in

They’ll come save me

They will win

An epic feat

I won’t die

The time’s not now

Someone cares

But I know now

The ones that I love didn’t come

For the first time I haven’t won

I miss my family and friends

For now I’ll just have to pretend

That I’m not gonna die

That I’m not gonna die

That I’m not gonna die

That I’m not gonna die!

(Instrumental)

They give me a drug, like before

To trick me again, to think once more

I don’t miss my family and friends

When this is really the final end

I’m going to sleep

I’m going to sleep

I’m going to sleep

I need to wake up!

The ones that I love didn’t come

The ones that I love didn’t come

The ones that I love didn’t come

Where are they now?

Track 19: Somewhere

I can hear your voice

Calling out to me

I can hear the cries

Coming out from me

I can hear your voice

But it is all a distant blur

I can see my choice

Of a life, now all just a blur

I need you here now

I can see you though the snow

Will I ever see?

You, maybe not, maybe never, though

I won’t worry anymore

I know you’re out there

Somewhere

I saw you there before

I know you’re out there

Somewhere

I can hear the chains

Rattle all the same

I am trapped, distant

For your warm mane

I feel so desperate

Everything is now all nothing

I want you here now

So all that nothing is something

I calling you right now

I can see you through the lies

I can call you now

But I could only just say goodbye

But I won’t worry anymore

I know you’re out there

Somewhere

I saw you there before

I know you’re out there

Somewhere

(Guitar Solo)

And I’ll be thankful for my life

And I’ll be thankful for what I’ve got

There’s still something missing

But for now, it can be forgot-ten

And I won’t worry anymore

I know you’re out there

Somewhere

I saw you there before

I know you’re out there

Somewhere

Somewhere

Somewhere

Track 20: Breaking Out

It was all just a dream

I woke up from the drugs

They are still cooking me

I wonder where I was

Something about that dream

Something was quite true

The ones I love are out there

They’re still with me; it’s true

They cared about me

But I let myself decay

But now I’m breaking out

And I’m gonna save the day!

(Instrumental)

Running through the hallways

They’re chasing after me

I don’t know if it’s real

Or just a fantasy

But I’m not stopping now

I’m not dropping somehow

I’ll make it to the light

And be back into sight!

And it’s true; the world needs you!

A voice inside my head says

I’m not sure if this is true

But it helps me in these days

Trying to run away

Knowing people need me

I cannot stop just now

And make life just a dream!

It’s so hard on my legs

And sweat drips down my knees

I think I should give up

And then my life will cease

But it’s true; the world needs you!

A voice inside my head says

I’m not sure if this is true

But it helps me in these days

Reaching for the black door

The sun shines through; it’s bright

Practically ten inches

And I’ll be back into the light!

Then I open the door

And jump off from the ground

I’m sure I’m at last free!

But then they drag me back down!

(Guitar Solo)

Voice: “How did Mike wake from the drugs?”

Voice 2: “I do not know.”

Voice: “What should we do now?”

Guest star with bass voice, acting out that evil creature: “Throw him in the pit!”

Track 21: The Crossroads

[Note: This part is whispered]

Standing at the crossroads

Of this life

Trying to find a home

To reside

I have learned my lesson

Yes you have

Why can’t I go back home

I’m so sad

[Note: This part is screamed]

Standing at the crossroads

Of this life

Trying to find a home

To reside

I have learned my lesson

Yes I have

Why can’t I go back home

I’m so sad

(Guitar Solo)

Track 22: The Pit

Voices Chanting:

“Throw him in the pit!”

“Throw him in the pit!”

“Throw him in the pit!”

[The sound of Mike falling into the pit of tar mentioned above]

[Cheers from the voices chanting]

[Note: here is the key to understand the song below. The regular writing is Mike singing. The writing in italic is a female voice. And the writing that is underlined is that guest star with the bass voice, acting out the evil creature.]

I’m sinking into this pit

You’re sinking into this pit

I feel I should quit

You feel you should quit

Where did you go Mike?

Why did you let yourself decay?!

I was a bad boy

I was a sad boy

I lost all joy

And now I got it back

Such an untimely time to have got it back

We loved you Mike!

Why did you have to leave?!

It was the shame

The Blame

The names they called me

The feel

Of being a third wheel

Shall I continue?

No you shall not

You get what you deserve

For becoming a slave

And leaving your world

But wasn’t it you who told me to?

That doesn’t matter

It doesn’t matter anymore

When you go away

When you lock the door

But wasn’t it you who told me to?

[Booing sounds from the chanting people]

Well, I’m not the one sinking into the pit

In fact, that was the very pit I came out of

[Cheering sounds from the chanting people]

You’re right!

You’re right!

I threw it all away

You’re right!

You’re right!

It doesn’t matter if you told me to

In the end the only thing that matters is my friends!

Which you threw away!

Please give me a second chance

Please give him a second chance!

Please give me a second chance!

You already got a second chance

And a third, and a fourth, and a fifth

You’ve gotten far beyond 7 times 77 chances

So goodbye sir!

I’m fading away

I’m fading away

Sinking into this pit!

I’m fading away

The only thing you can’t take away is my love!

Like that matters when you’re all alone!

[Laughing sounds from the chanting people]

Please save me, mother

Please save me

Please save me, father

Please save me

Please save me, brother

Please save me

Please save me, God

Please save me!

And no one comes

The only thing they can’t take away is my love!

I may forget their names

I may forget my gloves

I may just lose it all

But I’ll never forget my love!

So you wanna love people you can’t even remember?

[Snickers from the chanting people]

Mike, please come back

We miss you O so

Do you want to come?

Or sink into this hole?

I cannot come

But they cannot take away my love!

Now I’ll close the hole shut

So you can never escape!

But you cannot take away my love!

[The hole that connects the pit to the outside world shuts]

I’m sinking into this pit

Or the tar of my dark past

I should have known my victory

Was not about to last

Didn’t deserve a Second Chance

This time; that is my guess

For even at my best

I still couldn’t make it through

I’m sorry everybody

For the mess I had made

I wish I could help you

But I have dues to pay

I finally love life

Just a bit too late

Now I’m sinking away

Oh my twisted fate!

I’m sorry everybody

For the mess I had made

I wish I could help you

But I have dues to pay

Help me

Again

I can

Not win

[Mike’s head is almost covered by tar]

Mike: “They cannot take away my love!”

General: “Hoist him up, boys!”

[The soldiers lift a shriveled looking Mike out of a well]

General: “lieutenant, who is this?”

Lieutenant: “His name is Michael Justin Mantecon. He was born on Friday, June 13^th, 1997.”

General: “How did he get in this well?”

Lieutenant: “Someone said they saw him stumble in there drunk during the middle of the night.”

[General goes to Mike]

General: “What the hell were you doing boy?! You scared the ones who love you half to death!”

Mike: “Creatures Enslaved me, I became a Totalitarian dictator, I was fading away, I…”

General: “What the fuck! You must have been drinking to much whiskey, boy!”

Mike: “What…”

Lieutenant: “General, Sir, he needs medical attention.”

Mike [whispers to himself]: “That was all in my mind?”

Mysterious Voice: “Maybe not. You did see that creature before you went to the party and got drunk.”

[Mike snaps out of it, and general comes back to him]

General: “Don’t you care about your friends and family?!”

Mike: “I do, just not about myself.”

General [In a kinder voice]: “You know, sometimes you have to love yourself before you love and care about others.”

[General walks toward the paramedics]

General: “Get this boy to the hospital!”

[Mike’s Father, Mother, Brother, Girlfriend, closest friends, and a few others sit by him while he is in the hospital]

Track 23: Epilogue

The ones who love me are here

And even if they’re not much

They were all I had that day

Before I was out of touch

I thought that something was missing

I couldn’t have been more wrong

I guess you don’t know what you have

Until it is all long gone

But now I’m back in this world

And now I see they’re so much

For a third wheel like I am

And I love them very much

Though still something is missing

I know it out there somewhere

But today I’ll have some fun

With those who love me and care