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Linkin Park are my heros, my saviors!
I really can't thank them enough for what they've done and still are doing!
If by chance they read this one day (which I highly doubt) this is just a brief text for you guys!
My name is Haya, I'm a normal girl that is quite popular.
I've had more than enough issus through the last 4 years... actually 6 years.
I overcome A LOT of my problems today but there's always a new issue like now I started being bulimic again, My depression is taking over again and life sucks as usual but I'm a strong girl, or I like to believe that!
It was you guys that made me believe I'm worth something, there is nothing wrong with me and I need to be myself not changing myself for someone else.
As a girl, looks are very important and I'm struggling every single day to feel good about myself! I spend at least 1h every morning on my hair and makeup to a point that my old classmates who went with me in the same class for 4 years had no idea how my natural hair looked like or how I looked like without makeup.
It's really sad that I'm putting this mask on every single day.
About once a month I break... I can't hold up with the fake smile and I stay at home crying and just let those voices kill a part of me.
I now am in a program at school (it's swedish highschool first year) which you could translate to community behavior science... It's a lot of sociologi and psykologi! I'm trying to help people who needs the help I need and in the same time finding an answer why the hell society is so f*cked up!!
Anyways life was always against me and I was about to do suicide more times than I should've, YOU GUYS SAVED ME!!
Thaank you *writing this with tears in my eyes* maybe I don't have the harshest life but I'm really sick of mine...hahaha
Forgive me for my grammar, I suck when it comes to grammar!
But gotta praise me for being quite good in English hihihi
WITH LOTS OF LOVE AND PEACE
-Haya, 16 years old and trying to get permission to tattoo the Lp logo! Working on it with mom!