why can i not see myself as beautiful? why do i look at myself in the mirror and see all of the things that make me not like other women. why cant i just be happy enough with myself so that i know what other women possess isnt better than me? why cant i see my true beauty? will i ever? or am i condemned to a life of people not getting it? i have 2 truly amazing people who totally get it. why cant i get it?