Haha, yesterday my friends called me: "Hey, you wann go to Nachtwerft?" a new disco in Linz, and I was like "Yeah, sure!" so we went to Linz but the disco was totally overcrowded so we decided to leave. We went back to the car and imagined Nici get kidnapped by a hobo while she was on the loo, it was pretty funny. For us, not for her :D

So, then we went to Altstadt, a part of Linz with lots of cool pubs and we found our own MacLaren's, Nici was grumbeling that she needs some alcohol, something that puts her away. I decided she should take the Long Island Ice Tea, a mixture of gin, vodka, tequila, rum and a bit ice tea. Well, she really did and she was totally drunk after that. It was pretty funny but she called the drink Long Ice Tea and everytime she said that we were shouting ISLAND. :D

Then we went to Markus' home, ate chips and watched three episodes of South Park and when I came home it was 2:15am. Repetition required! :DD

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I'm like Bruce Willis in 'Unbreakable'. Today I had an accident with my moped and, well, I'm alright, I don't even have bruising, but my moped is a bit...demolished. If I'd be demolished my insurance would pay the hospital. But I have to pay for the moped repair on my own. -.-

Does anyone have some money?

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I don't know what to practice: drums or piano? D:

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now a wonderful pic of new york is 'hanging out' in my flat. :))

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new cell phone :D

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teachin' myself hebrew...:)

another proof that I have no life...

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What the fuck! First they make fun of me, then they always send me messages. Help! Does anyone understand boys?

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It's Sunday and I have no idea what to do..

I need a life.

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Saturday, Sunday, Monday -> no coffee -> no new songs

Tuesday -> coffee -> new song

now, to everyone who thinks songwriting is hard: make some coffee ;D

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I just watched the Asia-Tour Video and one more time I see how much I really love Linkin Park <3

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the morning afterwards :)

my tongue's still black 'cause of the black vodka I was drinking all night long. I brushed my teeth when I came home and this morning, just sayin'! I got this feeling, still a little dizzy but happy and I feel so thirsty, I'd like to drink a whole bottle of mineral water right now. At 5 am I woke up, I drank the water from a bottle which was standing next to my bed and when it was empty I was like 'owww'. :'D

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THAT is what I call a weekend...Friday to Sunday in a cottage, far away from any civilization, no electricity, no water but lots of beer, wine & fun. I wish I could travel back in time, it was so funny, like: I was asked a pretty rude question and my dad's 'bro' said: "she won't answer you guys, she's in puppy protect program." he's so funny, even acted like he was gay with kraxi and telling me that my dad is worse than he, kraxi and roli together. :DD

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hell yeah.! :DD

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my mom: "well, what do you think about to get to know your granpda today?"

me: "I'm looking forward to eat in tavern." :))

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Last day in Gmunden in this fucking boarding school, the janitor controlled every room. I promise you, he opened my upper cabinet (which is so high, I nearly reach it, standing on my tip toes), closed it 'cause it was OK, opened the next and then my cabinet door broke down. You can't imagine how rude this guy was, he told me, that I'll have to pay, he thought, I broke it while I was in boarding school. I tried to explain that it wasn't me but he interrupted me! What the hell is wrong with this guy?! I told him, I won't pay for something I didn't even do and what did he? He walked out, while talking! If I'd do this while talking to my parents I can move out!

He took the wrong girl to do this shit, he won't see a penny. If he dares to send a bill, I sue every little cent out of him, I'll squeeze him like a lemon 'till there's only left dry rough skin that no one likes.

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oh my god..yesterday wasn't funny any more..first it was cool, i was dancing, always drinking some alcohol and then someone put drugs in my drink..then i was done..i had to puke so much, the ambulance nearly wanted to take me to hospital BUT i could tell them my dad's phone number from memory..my parents picked me up and today i feel better than i thought yesterday evening..i don't even have a hangover..i'm awesome :)

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I painted another pic..it's called 'Route 66' :))

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I got friends :D <3

David, Nici, Moni, Lena, me [from left to right]

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I painted something for my flat. It's beautiful, isn't it? :)

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HIM is a cool band. Not as cool as Linkin Park, of course..but check this out: -]-[-][-]\/[- :DD

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a happy new year to you, guys :D

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Merry Christmas to the people :)

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Dude! I made a branding! It was like: "Come on, guys, the fork is hot enough." - "It's gonna be cold in a second, when I stop now." and then they pushed the hot fork on my skin, I was like: "AHHH! F*ck!" I fell down on the floor and I laughed like mad. I will never do it again, it still hurts a bit but it's gonna heal completely, you won't see a scar afterwards.

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My best wishes go to Adele, with the hope that her beautiful and unique voice will recover. She deserved it more than any one else because her voice is so soft and incredible sweet. My dear, get well soon. You are one of my - now 3 - favorite singers in the world.

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Tomorrow I'll travel to vocational school and I'll stay there for the next 10 weeks [except for the weekends] and I don't know how to feel. Should I feel scared? Nervous? Happy? Maybe I'm excited, but is it in a positive or negative way? Does Linkin Park feel the same before they go on tour? Perhaps I'm just a bit confused. But I know one thing for sure: I'd prefer to fly to LA for 10 weeks to work on an album.

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The need to hold certain situations with paper and pencil.

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I just realized, that music is my whole life. I couldn't sing for 'bout 2 weeks and that's what I call 'hell' !

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"If you gaze into the abyss, the abyss also gazes into you."

At the moment I am working a lot with human abysses...

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I'm sick. I have a sore throat and can hardly speak. Help me! -.-"

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Yesterday a tattooed guy on the train offered me a beer, but I unfortunately had to decline with thanks. Nice boy with cool tattoos and piercings. :)

Oh, and the sushi was great, of course. Mike, you are correct. :DD

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Today I saw a guy who looked nearly exactly like Mike Shinoda. Unfortunately I couldn't take a photo. That would have been a bit...conspicuous..o.O

And...I can't wait to meet Andii tomorrow because we are going to eat sushi. I mean SUSHI! I can't wait any more :D

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I love my guitars..I love my piano and my keyboard..I love my drumset..I hate my voice..:/

Why can't I sing like chester? ;DD

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Honestly..If I had the choice between my life here and the life of a hard working rock star without a personal life...I'd take the rock star life..

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Ice on my skin/Afraid of breaking in/I don't trust you any more/I should have known/You are like everyone/Let me close our broken door/Why did I let it come that far/It reached the horizon/You really thought we were that close/But now you're on your own/I really thought I love you, boy/But you have never seen/The reason why I came to you/It's not because you mean/That I've been all alone this time/I've never cared 'bout that/Because I'm happy with everything/I'm happy with everything

I have

(written to melody of 'breaking the habit' but I'll compose another one)

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A Biker waved at me. But I drive a moped :D A real cool moped by the way

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Today I've been in Salzburg. Two hours to town, two hours back - oh yeah... So what, I bought a lollipop at 'Swedish Candy Shop' and I'm sure you can batter someone to death with this lolly, 'cause it's so heavy. For lunch we were at a Japanese restaurant and - wow! I've never eaten such a delicious food in my whole life! Mike's [ ♥' ] absolutely right, Japanese food is the best food.

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My mom thinks I rather win the Nobel Prize than a Grammy...xD

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Sorry, Bruno Mars, but Linkin Park is still the best..:*

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Everyone says, that it's impossible to become famous. But, listen, how can you know that, you didn't even try it, so shut up and let me try. I'll give my best and if it won't work, it's okay. At least I can say: "I tried it." and that's the most important thing.

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First Jam Session and first problems - Lena and I are perfectionists and Nici isn't motivated. -.-

And: our band exists for 'bout a week now and we've changed our name three times..xDD

Cαsταliα - Chino Aka (or Chi No Aka) - PU5H

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Jam Session for three days - oh yeah :D

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I know a producer..from Algeria...faaar away...

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Cαsταliα - our band. I fuckin' love it and I'm like the 'Mike Shinoda' of the band. Oh yeah! ;D Unfortunately I can't play rhythm guitar, keyboard and drums at the same time :/

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I dreamed that Rob gave me his drum sticks after a concert. When I woke up I was sad 'cause I wanted to show them to my friends.

So what, I think I should play more on my drum set :D

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Today's reality has been the thought from yesterday. And tomorrow's reality could be your thought today.