I've been in this state of Depersonalization for over 6 months now & I don't think I'm going to snap out of it anytime soon. I have learned to live with it..even though I wish I could "see" everything completely clear again. I wish I could completely feel alive & real again. I wish I could feel my emotions completely again.
It's almost a disability for me. It makes me anxious to drive, get a job, & go to school. & I've tried explaining it to everyone, but they're all like it's no big deal, just ignore it.
Um yeah okay, I'll just ignore the fact that life feels like a dream, that I'm completely disconnected with my surroundings & others, & that my memory is shit now.
Oh yeah, real easy to ignore.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm going mad. I'm not hallucinating or anything (thank god), but sometimes I feel completely insane. Like, when I'm just sitting in my room, I can "see" everything around me, but it all looks so weird & 2-D.
I really needed to vent, it's been getting really bad lately :[
Don't wanna be a downer :/
But is there anyone who knows what I'm going through? I know Chester went/is going through it.