I am turning to you the people, and maybe someone will be able to help me?
Ihave been going through a lot lately and it's starting to really bring me down. I am having thoughts of lonelyness, sadness, and that I don't belong. I keep asking for Gods help, but I think I am to blind to see what he wants me to see. I know that letting go of the lady who says she is my mom is hard and my step dad is like my real dad no where to be found. My brothers and sisters don't want anything to do with me, and thats hurting me because I never did any thing to hurt them so why do they hurt me? I don't want to sound like a cry baby , but I am a really nice guy I do for all those I can. But the feeling that my mom and step dad and dad and sisters and brothers have really got my-self wanting to punish my self. I know I am hurting my wife and kids and it all comes down to I am so hurt that depression is kicking my ass and i take it out on the ones that are here for me so will any one please help me so I can be a better husban and the best dad I can be please.