Yup of course,why not? =) I'll send you my profile through inbox,so you can add me. :)
Well,yes these exams are EXTREMELY demanding and really anchotic and the lessons I've chosen need a bunch of studying xD These are the last exams given at school,after these ones school is over and in the whole country,at the same time students of that grade sit the exact same exams,so because of these exams being the same for every student in Greece,they are really demanding and the rules are really strict so that equality and justice exists....well,ok it doesn't exist that much and also the ones who decide what the questions of the exams are going to be,dont give a fuck about us!! they put really difficult subjects and exercises and this year there were mistaken questions BUT they took NO responsibility on that,despite the amount of students that lost the points of that subject.....idiots !!!
Hehe me too sorry for the late reply but Im kinda bored of signing in lp.com daily cause I dont use the site so much , sooo that's why :P I know you're right and I totally aggree on what you're saying,but...there's ALWAYS that damn "but" ..... :\
Well,I finished this school year but now,eventhough it's summer and schools are over,I have to study for the next year which starts on september...it will be the last year in school and I'll sit some really important exams that will define whether or not I will be able to go to university,so it's crucial that I do well there,and I have many things to study so eventhough I'll write these exams on May 2013 I have to prepare myself from NOW...... -.- I fuckin hate it....
Soooo tell me , did you have a good time at your holiday??? =)
Ahahahaah :P Yes everything seemed to be better but yet it seems all the same shit to me...he is running away,he is really distant,abrupt and typical and its me who talks first and I have the sense that he is trying to avoid me...... everything is shit... >.< anyways...im trying to get over it or just to approach him but i dont know where this will lead me... :| Im on the wrong path and everything seem lost and me im like an idiot in the middle of nothing..
Heeey sorry for the late reply,but due to my exams and all this stuff that happen with him I forgot to enter lp.com xD Well,I decided yesterday to uncover my self...I wrote him a big text which took me about 3 hours to finish it...I explained everything in every detail...and today he answered me.... xD To my surprise,he wasn't angry at all xD
Actually he told me that he knew that it was related to me because he had seen a pic with my friend in my profile once and he remembered her...also,he was assured about it because of the way i was insisting on some special questions....he was thinking what the hell i was thinking but he said ok you wanna play,lets play it your way! xD But anyways he never played with me,cause he isnt that kind of person...he told bravo about the plan and that he has to say that i got guts cause what i did was the most eeeeeeem (he couldn t find words to describe it ) but it was amazing and he was really impressed...He apologized for the delete and everything,he added me again and told me he hopes we'll talk soon... :)
So everything turned out better but ok i was a fool and really humiliated xD i really laughed at my stupidity cause i thought i fooled him and that he hadnt understood a thing but ok I was just fooling myself xD Irony , lol !
If some new things hadnt happened I would say you're totally right.... :\ Look,some days after that my friends were telling me that he probably does the same things with all the girls and that he played with me...then i got really angry with this thought and me and one of my friends thought a plan: i blocked him so that he cant see my profile or my existance on fb. Then,my firend added him on facebook,he doesnt even know we are friends...and started talkin to him , she gave me her password and i entered her profile and i was reading everything...i was planning to make him fall in love with "my friend" (actually me) and then arrange a date with him,he would expect that girl (my friend) but all of a sudden he would see me in her place,and then i would make him feel such an idiot....BUT ....HE DIDNT PLAY with me xD we were talking from my friends profile for irrelevant things and he ended up talkin about a friend he hurt (me) and that he didnt want to do it,that he feels awful and that he became distant after her (mine) reaction,mainly because she (I) accused him of playing with feelings....and now i feel really strange , cause I dont want to lose him, i really want him,and im afraid of his reaction when i tell him who was the girl talkin to him...and also he sees me as a friend! -.- shit...WHY?!?! -.- but i still hope something will change,....
Sorry for the late responce.... :\ But everything became a mess instantly two days ago....i talked to that guy i've told you...
i told him how i feel about him and he was shocked he was saying sorry again and again that he doesnt know what to say and that he didnt want to hurt me and that this has never happened to him before... and i was really angry...so i told him : you know what? your sorry can mend NOTHING!! NOTHING! if you didnt know what you want from me its your problem but im payin the price for it now...and i also told him that i was an idiot to believe in him and in bullshit like he was different and its all my fault cause i gave him attention....
and then he hesitated to reply for about 20 minutes...then he told me : i wanted a close friend with the same wavelength as mine but ive made a big mistake im frequently damaged by my mistakes but your grief and sadness makes more miserable than i really am everyday of my life and when i say im sorry i mean it if you want proof here you have it...he send me a pic of his hand,he drew upon his skin with a razor and wrote im sorry...then he deleted me from facebook..
i started saying sorry through inbox and expressing some more feelings,i told him i didnt want him to hurt and pleaded him to accept my friend request..he did it...then i told him how important he is to me and that im a monster for hurting him..then he told me he is a monster and by being a monster to himself he can only know what is good for the others and some more things like he is the lowest of the low...i was telling him he is wrong on everything and that he is really important to me...he said goodnight and sorry he had to go...and then i told him as you understand ill try not to talk to you again cause i dont want to be annoying...you can do whatever you want with me if you want to talk to me,just do it...but just for you to know,i really feel things about you...and the other day...he deleted me from facebook.... :'(
Ok...just A CLOSE FRIEND?! Do you hug like that a close friend?! do you say such things as he was saying to me to a close friend??!!!!! And ok...he thinks he knows what is good for me...was it good to delete me??! I'm stunned,i dunno what to day..i still cant believe that things became like that.... :(
Yup I understand cause I feel pretty much the same :P But I don't regret of not trying any silly relationships,I prefer my loneliness to wasting myself around ;) These days I got a bunch of studying...we are having exams for the end of the year and we start on tuesday with latin....I like latin but the problem is that the bitch we have for a teacher aaaall this year hasn't beeen doing her job...instead of examinating us and explaining the lessons she was gossiping and bitching about everything irrelevant and now I have to study everything that is being taught in one year...and it was a new lesson for me so I FUCKING hate her !! ;@
Yeah I see your point...me too,I've been waiting for the one...the one who would care about me,who would love me trully and have genuine feelings for me...I prefer being single than in a stupid relationship that would last only a month or two,I want something permanent...I don't believe that teens can't love or that we should "live our life" and not taking everything so serious...to me it's wrong...cause living your life has nothing to do with wasting yourself in useless relationships...I think that in our age especially we are much more sensitive and ready to love than in 30 ...but if we hurt ourselves then we create a shell around us and make ourselves numb...The way I see it it's a mistaken attitude...
Hehe I'm really glad I helped you and I hope I'll accomplish it once again !! =D
Well...I see what you mean here,I understand that you do have feelings about her and it's not easy for you to just leave her especially now that she asked you to be with her... :\ I can't "command" you on what to do with that cause it's your decision... :) If you want to give her a chance and you do so,you are taking a big risk cause she didn't treat you right....but there is a possibility that she understood her mistake..... Instead,if you don't give her that chance though you really want to do so,then you might think of it again and again and then regret that you stepped back instead of taking the risk... so,think of that and make your decision :)
But if you choose to say yes to her then you shouldn't leave your heart open easily in the beginning and trust her absolutelly,cause in case she betrays you again,it would hurt more....By saying this I don't mean being with her without feeling a thing about her or treat her like you don't trust at all.....I just think you should be your self with her but inside you,don't leave yourself sooo open,i dont know if you got what i mean :) :P
Also I think it could be a really good idea to have an open conversation with her about everything that heppened and about what she did to you and how this made you feel..from the way she will be talking to you and the things she will say you'll understand what her intentions are and many many things.... :) in any case,i really wish you good luck! =D
Ooooh GOD thats REALLY sad !! :\ I really don't have the words to tell you anything to make you feel better... I know it's really hard for you to get over it cause your feelings are abused and your pshycology must be really fucked up after that... :( I don't know if this could help you,but think that everything happens for some specific reason and it might be better for you that you learnt about it now...Cause she could play with your feelings for much more time than that and then there would have been a strong bond for you,so it would be 1000 times more difficult to get rid of the pain.... Also,the whole story could be a good chance for you to boost your confidence instead of feeling miserable... =) Think about it...she chose you to make her ex jealous...that means you are a handsome guy that could make an ex feel jealous , cause I don't think that she would choose someone who isn't handsome...She probably wanted her ex to feel jealous and think that she found someone really beautiful ,not someone who isn't good looking ;) Soooo by this assurement you can feel much more confident about you and value yourself better...She is the loser,cause she stayed sticked to an ex,while she could do something with you....there are soooo many other girls out there that would appreciate both your appearance and your character ... ;)
OMG what a fuckin bitch!!!!! :@ It's really annoying that such girls exist,really! =.= Ok just supposing she wanted to make the other feel jealous or guilty or whatever! she was supposed to inform you from the start,she could JUST ask you to help her with that as a friend ! -.- Just try to get over her she doesnt deserve even a little piece of your energy and attention :) But it's really sad and annoying that such girls and guys exist,cause this attitude hurts feelings and then it's difficult to trust again,so many problems arise...
Hehe I know you're right but it's not something that I can control,cause trust is something that comes from your innerself...I told evertyhting to my friend and he told me that he is sure he wasn't playing with me or telling me lies and that I should leave him a bit and not talk to him until he talks forst and then he would explain everything...and what a coincidence ! the same night he talked to me and apologized for everything and now theoritically everything is fine but we havent talked that much since then :|
Hehehe really interesting!! So you will be one from the first ones who will get the album :DD Nice ;)
Yeees I guess you're right....look tomorrow we have school again (DAMN!) and this means I'll see my friend , the one who is his friend too , we met because of my friend...and I'll talk to him,I'll see if he can do something to help the situation or make things clear....he is my last hope xD
But really,if nothing good turns out from all this situation I will really have difficulty in trusting anyone again... I can't trust anymore for many reasons and once again I let my guard down,I trusted him and if I'll be betrayed again,then no more trust and thats not good..
Yeah me too I want to listen to the whole record to judge,so I am really curious for the album.... ;)
Yeeeeah thanks mee too I hope things will work out... But now I don't want to talk to him again and I won't talk to him again...cause I did so the last time and he was again a bit cold and distant,so I told him that I don't want bothering him if he isnt well and that if I'm annoying or something he should just tell me and that I just want to talk with him and be supportive to every problem he has and makes him feel down..and after 20 whole minutes he told me he is bussy cause he is buyin somethin from e bay and I told him to talk to me when he finishes....and after half an hour he disconnected without even saying gooodbye...and later in the night he was again online but he didn't talk...Ok for me that's it,I won't talk to him again....it's final...if he wants I'm there.... :\
Hehehe yeah I know anout the new album...burn it down to me was a disappointment cause to my mind LP have turned to electronic music and I loved them with their metal character of HT and Meteora and M2M....I really hope the other songs of the album will be old school LP cause I REALLY miss it...
Yeah I remember you are playing piano right? :D Do you have any videos on youtube?? =)
Oh it's really sad that things didn't work out.... :\ well,about my case we went out on march 31 (epic day Lol)...he was really good to me and we were hugged all the time and before we meet we were talkin on facebook and he was really cute with me,tellin me compliments all the time and that he likes my character and things like that...you know everything worked out wonderful,especially the night we went to a live of two friends of my cousin they thought we were a couple xD he was really caring and kind and he was takin care of me cause I had 38 fever....BUT he forgot my birthday :'( and the worst is that he had his birthday one day after we went out (1 april) and me I had mine on 6 april...HOW COME HE FORGOT???? :( and up to now he is much different....I asked him if I did sth to him and told him about some things that made me sad and he told me sorry for all these,that everythin is fine with me i didnt do sth and that he is a bit off these days and not really well....I dunno I hope it's a phase cause I'm really disappointed when thinking I believed him and now he is so different :\